When I woke up this morning, I wondered if today will be another *happy* day... well, the day is now half over and somehow it made me look back at all the things that happened. Then a scary feeling came over me, what if I am doing this all wrong. Maybe I should be out more, concentrate more, call friends and family more... I remember watching a korean soap, one of the main character said "maybe" is a word he never wants to use because you can't change the past, because maybe is not certain and you have no control over maybes... Hmm I don't think I am explaining this properly.Anyway, I do really wish that real soon, everyone can get together, and hopefully nothing would have changed. Because no matter what people think, change is a scary thing...Ooh yeah, I am getting kicked out of my temp housing this weekend and I haven't looked at housing yet... hahaha... funny isn't it?? OOH MY GOSH BUT I AM GETTING PAID TOMORROW!! SWEEET... ooh of course that is if they sorted out my Social Security stuff... oii... Well Gus and Vish both said they won't let me sleep on the streets, so yay!