So I've been having lots of "my teeth just fell off" dreams... like 4 different nights. Anyway, weird weird weird... so I looked up what the dream interpretation might say... Apparently, your tooth falling out is very common dream... there are many interpretations but here are some...

"One theory is that dreams about your teeth reflect your anxiety about your appearance and how others perceive you."
"Another rationalization for these falling teeth dream may be rooted in your fear of being embarrassed or making a fool of yourself in some specific situation. These dreams are an over-exaggeration of your worries and anxiety"
"...In this regard, teeth represent power. And the loss of teeth in your dream may be from a sense of powerlessness. Are you lacking power in some current situation? Perhaps you are having difficulties expressing yourself or getting your point across. You feel frustrated when your voice is not being heard."
"In the Greek culture, when you dream about loose, rotten, or missing teeth, it indicates that a family member or close friend is very sick or even near death"
"According to the Chinese, there is a saying that your teeth will fall out if your are telling lies"
"It has also been said that if you dream of your teeth falling out, then it symbolizes money. This is based on the old tooth fairy story."

Cool eh??

I choose to believe in the last but my dream may be related to the first and third quotes... but then again, it may JUST be dreams... no meanings attached. :)

SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO FRUSTRATING!!!

I went on blogger to b***ch about how everyone is just pissing me off... and I couldn't log in... for WHATEVER the reason I totally forgot user name and password... What the ****!!!!

Anyway, I am going inSANE and I thought instead of screaming and possibly getting fired... I thought I'd just write it down in my blog... WHAT WAS I THINKING?!?! Screaming is soooo much quicker and easier AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

For all you people who
- use sarcastic tones/jokes (If you are gonna make a joke, make a real one.. don't be stupid... actually just don't talk)
- Act like they are all that by arms crossed and just have constant frown on their face... you ain't kidding anyone... I know you know JACK****
- question (questioning is okay) and complain about EVERY PROCESS... AAAAAHHHH... Stop complaining and give solutions!!!
- oh who am I kidding... I just hate everyone... even a friend who is "suupppose" to be all kind-hearted.... she's pissing me off too!! Oh but that goes under the first bullet... but since I hate those kind of people more than anything I will write it twice.

I want today to be O! V! E! R!

Saw this cheesy chickflick yesterday but there is this really cute song that I wanted to remember called...

Way Back into Love

[Cora]
I've been living with a shadow overhead
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed
I've been lonely for so long
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on

[Alex]
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away
Just in case I ever need them again someday
I've been setting aside time
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind

[Cora & Alex]
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
Oh oh oh

[Cora]
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine
I've been searching but I just don't see the signs
I know that it's out there
There's gotta be something for my soul somewhere

[Alex]
I've been looking for someone to shed some light
Not somebody just to get me through the night
I could use some direction
And I'm open to your suggestions

[Cora & Alex]
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart again
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end

[Cora]
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation

[Cora & Alex]
All I wanna do is find a way back into love
I can't make it through without a way back into love
And if I open my heart to you
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do
And if you help me to start again
You know that I'll be there for you in the end

Pasted from <http://www.metrolyrics.com/way-back-into-love-lyrics-various-artists.html>

It's Saturday... I am here at the library again, trying to catch up on work. Nothing is new but one thing. I am listening to a CD I happen to find at the library here. It's a soundtrack based on a Chinese TV series called MARS. This tv series was so similar to many of the Korean soaps and maybe that's why I enjoyed watching some of the episodes on TV. Anyway, the sound track is making me want to smile, even though in real life, I might not really want to... with this soundtrack, I almost feel like I've found happiness. It's amazing how music can make you feel all sort of emotions. I wish I can some how capture this feeling I feel... and share it. How can I not understand a single word yet feel like I can relate to everything. How bizarre...

It's time for a blog update...

Hmmm lets start with something fun. I went bowling from KM church and I kicked BUTT! 3 guys and 2 girls had to represent from each group and I went as one of the two girls and all those guys in my group who said they were really good actually really sucked (they caught up later but still...). I KICKED ASS!

Lets see.... now on to more serious stuff...
I painted my nails BLACK. It's really stupid but it sort of gives me the edge to be stronger at work... yeah I know, totally stupid but hey, it works for me.
And I got a cold... and it won't go away. Ooh did I mention I hurt my back putting on a sock? Well, I did... I was putting on my sock one morning and hurt my lower back and couldn't really move... I had to roll over off the couch... pretty pathetic but everyone has to get old sometime or another.

Ooh RIGHT! Yesterday was a valentine's day.... hee hee... being stressed at work makes you forget good stuff in life sometime. I was suppose to show up at a place at certain time (so romantic ... [gag?] ). Anyway, because of work I was late and was stuck in traffic for 3 hours! We ended up catching last 30mins of the show that he bought tickets for and went to a really nice restaurant on 26th floor... nice view. Unfortunately, I was feeling pretty sick and tired and couldn't really taste what I was eating... booo whoooo.... ooh and I got arranged roses the day before valentine's day... [brag brag... hee hee]

Other than that, my life is filled with panic attacks, anxiety attacks, tears, stress, laughter and pain, both physical and mental.... Life IS wonderful though... Like Kelly Clarkson said, God won't give you more than you can't handle....

you all need to blog more... I feel like I am the only one blogging :P

Do you guys ever go back and re-read your old blogs? Well, I did... not because I had time left over (I feel like I need to clarify that for Eric) but because I was really curious to know if I've change since graduating college. And I really think I did... I use to write funny blogs... now it seems like they are dull and boring! I need to un-dullify myself somehow...

I guess on a random note, I found out that one of my second cousin got married sometime last year... the kicker is that he's like younger than my younger brother. Has time really come to this, that I have to watch people much younger than me to get married... eeeks. And thanks to my house mate(!!!!) I am thinking that I am really not that young anymore and should consider settling down before I turn from ugly to drop-dead ugly. Isn't life wonderful??

Isn't it great to have random thoughts, topics, conversation, maybe even a random partner? Hahaha just kidding... ok so not all random things are good... I get it. But here is one more random thought I had.

Random thought 1:

"Truth really come out when you are drunk?" - some people cry, some people snore and some get really friendly, while some get.... truthful? I guess I drank little (as in a lot) more than I wanted in the new year's eve party and next morning realized that I've said some really truthful stuff to people... I won't say who or what since this is like a public blog for all to see but I always wondered what was my "drunk" talent... maybe, just maybe, when I drink a LOT... I tell the truth. Things that should not be said out loud but total brutal truth. It's very interesting... everyone should findout what their "drunk-self" is... of course, be responsible at it...

Happy New Year everyone!